standingonmyowntwofeet

A Journey from Victim to Survivor…to Living Freely

I Ate….At a Picnic….

on August 25, 2013

If you are reading this and battling Ed…you know how important that is….I vividly recall last year’s church picnic…I was terrified.  Of the unknown food and all that it brought with it.  Today, I ate….at a picnic….and I think that I was close to plan.

 

I head in tomorrow for an EGD…a scope to look at my stomach and esophagus to check on the damage that was caused by years of purging,,,,of purging before I knew what purging was.  I’ve nearly forgotten what purging is like…or why I’d do it….or how it made me feel….I remember the scratched throat and pruny fingers….the “high”….the feeling I was doing something….but it’s not something I miss.  No….it’s not something I miss.  It only makes me sicker.  It only makes me doubt.  It only makes me feel lousy about myself.  It only hurts me.

 

 

Wow….what a year.

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