standingonmyowntwofeet

A Journey from Victim to Survivor…to Living Freely

I Didn’t Miss This

on December 21, 2012

I didn’t miss flashbacks.

I didn’t miss needing to stay so, over-the-top, distracted that I forget to eat.

I didn’t miss thoughts of self-harm sneaking into the crevices of my mind.

I didn’t miss the feeling of someone touching me when no one was there.

I didn’t miss hearing things that should never be said to a child.

I didn’t miss the tears just behind my eyelids, threatening to leak.

I didn’t miss the nausea that rolls through my body without provocation.

I didn’t miss moment upon moment of reliving trauma.

I didn’t miss judging myself for not handling this ‘perfectly’.

I didn’t miss just wanting to pretend that none of this happened to that little girl, that wife, that single woman.

I didn’t miss this.

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